Eve’s and Wazir’s lil blog space

when you are in deep shit…
when you are unhappy about something…

its like ppl who love you could sense it…

sudently all your good pals will call you up out of the blue…

amazing rite?

things at work is so hectic…
can hardly breathe…
the auditors are coming next week…
god bless me…

who would have guesed i’d meet you in my dreams?
today what im feeling… i dont know…

where did you go..?
who would have guessed it was you?

when we would talk non stop…
you always being there for me…

who could explain why…
im just like a kid…
circling around you whenever you are near…
needing your attention…

please forgive me.. for ever doubting you… doubting myself… doubting you…
i finally understand…. what im looking for… what you are looking for…

i know you like your freedom and how things are…
i hate the way im feeling…
i hate all these what if situation…
i hate it when things are not what it seem to be…
i hate you.. i hate myself… i hate you more… no i hate myself more…

why cant i just let go? why? i dont know…. why am i even thinking of you?
shit shit shit!

why do you have to appear now… after all these years…. when im able to stand back on my own again… when i felt ready to move on.. you move back into my life…

Why………………….. is it that love is such that..

its like a million pieces of broken glass on your heart…
slowly shredding it apart…
slowly bleeding to death…
a slow and painful… a deathly situation..
it blurs your system…
knocks out your senses
makes you think like a mad person
makes you loose your bearings

why is it like that……

went to work super early today…
arrived about 7 ish close to 8 am…
first face i saw at work today was wazir and ai wei…

then the day went super fast!
next thing i knew it was 8pm liao…

went off for dinner but didnt really know where to go…
drive drive drive.. chat chat chat…
end up in SS2… went to Murni…
had my fav tandoori chicken, a little bit of cheese garlic nan…

simply heavenly… now too full to go to sleep!!
how???

woke up with a craving for fried mushroom…

went online…. see who is around…. had a chat with wazir…

discovery today…
aunty margaret also have MSN one wor.. added her and started yakking also

made wazir and margaret come my house to lepak…

wahahahaha……………..

CCW team got first placing, wazir and margaret got second….
we won 6th placing in the treasure hunt!!!

not bad… happy happy joy joy…. so dog tired but cant sleep!!

woke up super early…
took a slow drive to the hospital..

got scolded by nurse… cos i hilang my appointment card… seems that very hard to find my record if no card wor…

sat there waiting for the DR for 2 hours before he is free to see me… went and sent sms to wazir to kacau him…. and also to wish edmund happy bday…

sien sien…. saw dr finally…
stepped on the scale….
kena scolded again…
suposed to loose weight, i go gain weight!

got lectured about higher risk blah blah if i keep gaining more weight…

put me on new medication..

hmmmm when is this going to end huh?
i hate eating tablets… and its not colourful or sweet one

felt blur… with all those info and scolding… on a daze went to my mommys restaurant for lunch…

wazir called said want to go low yat or not… to buy camera for his sis… really wanted to go and kay poh but have to ffk in the end…

met margaret, ewa, yen ping, and wazir for katak porridge…

have to deco car… tomorrow is our treasure hunt day! wish me luck hor…

yeahoo…. finally felt better…
went to send my car to fix…

mechanic: hey long time no see huh…
me: yah lor busy mah.. eh can check my absorber for me ah.. when i turn steering hor got kong kong kong sound!
mechanic: ok la…
*proceed to jack up the car*
*take the tire and shake shake*
mechanic: WAH LAU.. you also can one lor!
me: why why? anything wrong?
mechanic: your tire huh almost going to drop off only you came here!
me: *ha? shocked look*

lesson learnt today…
if car got noise… small squeek squeek… whatever… dont wait till the radio cant drown the sound away… it may cost you your life..

i felt very teruk and almost passed out…
so i went to clinic again..
idiot DR told me its ok to have blood pressure ave 80/40

charged me RM80, sent me home with 3 packs of dehydration salt???!!!!

im not interested in getting MC’s (not that she gave me any MC la)
im really feeling awful!
you just tell me im having stomach virus?

OY i dont even have diarhea! im not even vomiting…
i just feel nausea…

i called wilson… and asked him if its normal..

went to work…
feel even more sick…
sick of seeing someone…
sick of things berlambak on the desk…